ch-ch-ch-ch changes...

There are times in life, I've noticed recently, when you realize just how much living you've done and sometimes how much you have left to do. I think that for the most part we all just live our lives from day to day and think very little about all the subtle changes that happen all the time. Don't get me wrong, I think that is the way it is supposed to be. Our lives are supposed to change because we are supposed to change. Sometimes it is hard when the people in our lives change in ways that don't make sense to us. The funny thing is, those people may very well be thinking the exact same thing about us.
I think I have the chance to think about this sort of thing more often than a lot of people because I went away to college and then moved home after for more school. After being gone for four years, things are bound to be different. That was kind of hard for me at first. I came home expecting it to feel like, well... like home. I wanted to feel the same sense of security that I did when I was younger, and I was really upset when I realized I wasn't going to get that. I've since realized that it was foolish of me to believe that I was going to return to the same place I left years ago. I've learned and grown and changed so much in the last few years. It was naive to believe that other people and places wouldn't be doing the same.
They say that the only thing that remains constant is change. I believe that. The funny thing is how change sometimes sneaks up on us when we think we're staying the same. You know what I'm talking about. Its like when you have a friend that you've always talked to often, but slowly but surely you lose touch. Or when you're in a relationship and totally in love, but you just stop trying so much because you're so comfortable and then one day you realize that the magic is gone. If you're anything like me, you sit there are think over and over these situations and wonder how it happened. In the end though, there is nothing you can really point to. Change happened when you weren't looking.
Sometimes we make changes on purpose, but more often it just happens as a result of the lives we lead. I was going to make some statement about how there are certain things you'd want to keep the same, but I'm not. It just isn't possible to stop change from happening. The only thing you can do is try your hardest to make the changes be for the better. Life will move forward whether you're ready or not. I guess we just have to do our best to be ready.